Happy yet Distraught


I got a part in an indie film! Great, right?

I thought so… until the time to film came and the three women heading the project completely fell into the “women can’t work together with being catty” stereotype.

Let me tell you, I was so excited to not only be in a movie but, to be in a movie run by three very awesome women. They are all beautiful, smart and talented so, I figured there was no way of failing. I was so wrong.

When I think about the wasted money, I cringe. The film’s campaigns on indiegogo and gofundme were so successful! We reached out goals both times. Ten thousand dollars! TEN THOUSAND DOLLARS to make a film and it all goes down because, what, cattiness? Inability to communicate? Inability to understand a chain of command? Like, I don’t even know what caused them to start fighting nor do I entirely care.

When I think about all the people who put aside whatever was going on in their lives to get themselves to rehearsals, meeting and eventually to set, I cry. We had to have around twenty or more people there. Twenty people who took off school, work and set aside family time to make that project happen. They all carpooled or drove themselves so, that’s gas money. For me it was only about an hour and a half of driving (not too bad). For others it was much longer.

I just received confirmation that we will resume filming sometime in the spring from the Director, the brilliant Yasmina Karrachou. This makes me unbelievably happy that we will proceed minus the hostile people. Again, I don’t know what happened but I saw, with my own two eyes, what issues were arising and who they were coming from so, I know enough to draw some conclusions. Faults on all sides I suppose.

I really hope that the dedication and donations of others don’t go to waste on this project. I also hope that we’ll be able to release this stunning movie for all to see by next year around this time.

Here’s hoping I get to play CC again.



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